You let bats out in your house. The lights are turned off in the computer lab, store, as you have gallons of soda smashed against your head. Dad tortures you for your computer password, wake up screaming. ... Katsuhiko messages me personally with an invitation to his new project. I show up to the address listed, there are a few dozen others. A booklet is passed out to everyone which reveals it to be a film of sorts. The contents include extra photos and behind the scenes from development. While I was a bit fussy and yelled at first that I didn't want to go, I'm grateful he dragged me along. I think he's a good friend. ... Ride up an elevator in an industrial site with another. The platform sways like it were floating on water. It reaches the top where a series of floating slides takes you. The other begins to be careless, falls off and down. They were beckoned and distracted by pretty ladies from below. ... Delete my sensitivities so you don't have to think about them after the fact. ... I showed up to my high school with weapons and tools to kill everyone, dressed in Mom's clothes. Changed my mind at the last moment. There was a boy who I was fond of that I used the mood of absent self preservation to hit on. He was kind and friendly, wore a knit hat. Arianna called out the only name she knew me by at the top of a staircase. She wanted to catch up, we decided to ditch school. We went back to my house and looked at my old drawings and some gifts she gave me in middle school I still had. A story about tacos in pastel. A story about a party of ducks. Animations made across notebooks. I abandoned these aspects of myself long ago. I abandoned my creations. I abandoned my old self. I abandoned the emotions. I abandoned the values. I abandoned the desires. I tried to hide them. I forgot about them. I avoided judgement. I deleted my humanity. It still permeated in my body as proof by stimulation of their return to memory. I couldn't let myself be. I cared too much. I cared too little. Otherwise things would have been made difficult. They would have been made awkward. I am known.