I dream about the troubles of trying to become an astronaut. Many school troubles. They're suspicious of the way I spend my time. Yet, I end up at the top. Playing baseball in front of 蟇悟｣ｫ螻ｱ. If I want to achieve any of my goals, I need to study a lot and get good grades on a regulated schedule. I was nervous about a transgender person appearing on my monitor in the computer lab. I know logically it isn't a big deal, but I can't help but emotionally feel horrible that I might be connected to that kind of person. My throat feels like it's being choked, my body shakes, my vision gets blurry, and I want to puke. I wish I could get over it, even around friends.