I went into the desert where there was a militarized sector with missiles and such. I was permitted though. I continued to the skatepark in the middle of the night where I met some guys who were kind of rude. But I stood my ground and was innocent about wanting to make friends and skate. They were still rude though And weird and mean though like a 4channer might be. The lights were dim. I returned and met them a second time, and then I found them online and made a forceful Discord group to watch them play games on a server they use. They and k were cute furries and I remember swatting their mouse in the VR office setting and us laughing together. It's odd because they were mean to me but I kept talking to them. Dad, as a reaction to something I did, said that I'm not permitted to live this way anymore. He's taking my drugs, he's taking my possessions, taking my passwords. It felt horrible, because I couldn't clean my room unless I had my alone time to myself, not him constantly watching over and judging me. I felt so lonely and terrified of him. I watched as my brother got the freedom he wanted and rubbed it in my face as I couldn't have a room anymore. At the same time i just wanted to kill myself, so I took his pistol and did without saying goodbye to anyone. He disabled my sim card and took my phone so I couldn't anyway. He has cameras everywhere and computers locked. I have no reason to live. I hate him. I hate you Dad. I hate you more than anyone else in the world. I hate how you think you can get away with it. I hate society. I hate myself. I'm so worthless. I just want to be cared about and hugged and loved. I don't like being yelled at and judged anymore. I don't like being threatened to be kicked out, have my college fund taken away constantly, and be told there's something wrong with me now. I never took drugs before and you still did this shit. It's just a fucking excuse now. You can point at it and say it's your rationale. Fuck you. I hate you. Get out of my dreams. I want to be alone. I can never get the fuck away from you. I'm chained to you until I fucking graduate and get a shit wageslave job. I hate my life. I should die. Cleaning my room and trying so hard is pointless. Nobody cares about me or talks to me anymore except people thousands of miles away who are just fucking feds. Fuck my life. I hate everything. I miss Alfie. I retired from Twitter because it's cringe as fuck. I'll return on four years, if that.