Grandma's dimentia is killing her. Played super Mario 64 with Clint and someone else. Chatted with some people outside a birthday party asking if j like to sing or want to record something for a video like trendsetter Mr beast thing. Brock kicked me from group because of some delusion I had or was rude to corrupt data. No desk in class. Tip hat in school. Lucid dream about trying to isolate and rape girl but family got in way. Left house and they argued I deserve worse. I argues that they aren't even real they don't have tbe argument of being another body because they're my body they're less than human. I walk the streets to demons of suggestion until eventually Alfie's voice in VC wakes me up but he isn't really either